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How do we let go of our self?  The mind is on board….the heart is on board…how do I put them together and create action?  I say the words.  I believe it in my heart, and then……..nothing.  Am I waiting for some lighting bolt or the earth to shake?  I feel like I’m in some dream and danger is right there and I need to get away but my feet are stuck in the ground.  I know what to do….yet I don’t know how to do it. 

Are you tired of my posts yet?  I’m tired of going no where.  I’m tired of no changes in my life.  Ever feel like you are in the middle of a fog that goes on and on and the more you search the more lost you become?  I’m there.  I’m lost and nothing looks familiar.  No land marks.  No signs to show me the way. 

Trust in the Lord.  Pray.  Seek Him.  Read His word. 

I’m doing that, so why am I still lost?

I’ve left Egypt but I”m still wondering in the desert.  I know the answer but the old still seems better.  I’ve been set free by my salvation through Jesus Christ.  Yet I still live in the sinful nature.

Why? 

Always why with me.

Lord, why do I prefer bondage to Your yoke of freedom?  Renew my mind and break the bondage of the old master that I have served for so long.  I’ve grown so accustomed to the stake I’ve been tied to that I don’t understand anything different.  Deliver me from myself Lord.